Tonight was fun as fuck..This weekend has ruled... been different.. no starbucks.. just having fun otherwise.  I saw that movie the forgotten.. damn that movie is creepy... that guy is creepy.. this stuck up bitch in front of me , meagan, and caitlynn was like SHHHHH.. and i was like.. shut the fuck up, i'll rape you.  And her friend was like ( omg, he just said he'd rape you ) .. i was like.. damn right I'll rape him.. hahahahah it was funny.. bobby lampely showed up... damn.. tonight was wonderful... I told ya it would happen eventually.. Me and Carolyn are friends agian.. I like it.. I just dont wanna become her friend.. and then fight her agian.. but I dont think we'll ever fight agian.. Nothing to fight about... Its good right now....Well.. today a crazy day.. let alone.. hanging with carolyn, and meagan, and caitlynn and them.. there was cops at my house.. fighting, yelling.. but its cool.. Nothing new.......

          ( do you have a boner? ) .. lmao.. that was funny ... you would of just had to of been there.. well nothing else to say.. see yall later

Im basically into skateboarding again. Big into it. and me and matt play a couple of cover songs.. its cool... we recently learned ( blur-song 2)... simple song.. fun to sing.. and play.. bobby lampely wants to get a bass.. and sing in our "band".. not really a band.. more like.. friends fuckin around.. and having a great time.. playing what we love. Im gettin a acoustic guitar and some pedals for my b-day. november 24. i cant wait.. Imma learn so many acoustic songs... Imma make so many songs.

Im pretty good other wise. as in my social life. Holy Shit.. my dad just got the bill from the ambulance that took me to the hospital.. his insurance didnt pay.. it was $448.00 .. i was like damn.. he told me not to do that stupid shit again.. yet.. ive did a 9 stair.. and i only kickflipped a 6.. and i hit my head... always get hurt on the little stuff... I take pride though... kinda like arto saari.. he sacarficed alot for skateboarding... almost died twice... making "flip sorry"

Today, What a day. Went to school with my haircut.  People are so ignorant sometimes. They ask .. "did you get ur hair cut"... i mean.. if it looks like it.. then why ask?... thats so stupid..i dont get why people do that..... When they know sumthing.. they ask anyways just from there common sense.. people are stupid.  I swear.... Thats about it for now.

Hey, I had a ok day today.. alittle different.. experienced bad stuff.. but Im ok with it.  Im suprised... because no thought in my mind is thinking about love right now.. usually i think about it none stop.. and ask why is it so complicated.. and irratating. But not now.. all i can think about it nothing.  There is nothing to think about ... just life is pretty great right now.. but yet..i still wonder how it will be in 6 months... any amount of time.. anything can change...

You  know what i hate.. i fuckin hate southaven people now.. if i say one small thing.. that means nothing to me really.. then people take it.. and tell people.. and tell other people. and it becomes and big Lie. and blown out of porportion...

People say im changed, .. yeah i changed alittle.. of course.. after a year and a couple of months i wont be that same person.. but i think the only thing that has changed about me is my attitude towards things.. i admit that i get angry at stuff easier then i used to... but im just sick of the same things.. and the same people.. thats why.. so it makes me look like a pissy person sumtimes.. but i know i have friends that care about me sum what.. i would hope.. cause even though it dont appear it.. i care for all of them alot.

I feel sick right now... really sick

    If people understand everything.. and wanted to see it all.. Life and its changes wouldnt be the same.. u wouldnt share those Great bad times.. or those good times you have... your life would choose to be bland.. everything happens for no reason.. its truth.. we make the desicsions.. so we change what happens.. people cant tell you whats gunna happen.. or ur future.. u make ur future.. ur choice to do it.. changes the path for everyone... It will never be perfect.. But it doesnt help .. To go around wanting it to be.. If it was.. then most of us wouldnt be the wonderful people we are....telling about how u want it.. just makes u more deep intune to it.. so just calm down.. and think about how theres 300000000 galaxies.. and 1 light year=6 trillion miles... and the closet galaxy to ours is 834 light years away........... Thats how big space is.. NIGGA.IM OUT

           Im learing more and more about people as the days go on.  People come and People go. And people never stay all the time.. time changes so fast and changes so much... I may want to get back with a girl that i liked a long time ago.  It just changes so fast.. Promises are broken... Sorrys are fading.. All of it means nuthin at all. i gotta go to school... bye

I've been doing alot of thinking lately about the past and such.  Today was alright, the girl that was supposed to call was mad cause i didnt call her, hah.  Who cares. Life goes on. I was doing some thinking about how relationship turn out today. How People change. How it all happens so fast. I can to alot of conclusions. Hate is ignorance. Today my mom called the cops on me.. cause i "hit her".  Which was bullshit, matt was right beside me.  She swung at me.. and i just grabbed her arms.. so she couldnt touch me.  The cops came and talked to me.  Actually the cops were badass. When they were leaving there reply to me was "gimme some" ( and made his hand like a fist.. and i hit his fist with mine).. Nice guys.  Anyways.. I kinda like writing in these journal's now. 

            I dont care what anyone says, you can say all the shit about blink182 you want, But there the best fuckin band ever. Yes they were Punk. ( chesire cat, Buddah, Flyswatter) punk<.. but yet.... there now somewhat emo.. more deep.. more like box car racer.. but still there the most inspirational band ive felt in years.. i been listeining to them since i was in 4th grade nigga.. ANYWAYS

           Today was ok.. at lunch a girl gave me her phone number.. its cool.. she was hott.. its cool.. i really dont wanna live here anymore.. it got bland.  I wanna pick up where i left off in hot springs. a year and six months ago.  It wont ever happen though, but i can drive there in januaury my father says.  Caitlynn offered to drive me to hot springs though.. she says she will get her liscense " for me".. i think she is awesome .. i really do.  Yet., I find myself asking.. the same questions as last time. so young, so lost, cant you realize it will happen agian.. until your older..i didnt call that girl today.. her name was kara... but i didnt feel like callin her.. i have alot on my mind.. i will update tommorow.

                                                                                      -wishing stars dont shine-   later

I wish that I could go back and never move. To live that second chance of that other life turn., after all ( I should go back to where i came from)... imma just remind myself of it was before i moved... my last day there in school... it was a thursday and basically everyone knew i was moving.. and it was tragic.. yet i was hoping for the best here... i got checked out at 7th period in Mrs. Goss's class ( arkansas history). i was in there with a girl nichole waymack that i started to really like. before i moved.. i knew since like 2nd grade.. but never ya know.. talked to her.. we started talkin.. and seeing each other.. then that day in 7th period.. i left.. for good..i saw all my friends before i left... in first period that day. ( mrs. B's class) ( home ec.) .. we were sewing home made pillows.. and i had a skateboarding one. and i sewed my own pillow.. i never got to finish it.. and left without it. i was in that class period with nick tapp.. and huntleigh childs.. two of my best friends... that friday i was out of school.. yet i didnt leave till the saturday.. i went back to school for 45 minutes on friday and suprised everyone.. i even got a last minute moment with nichole... my dad was with me .. to sign in all my books.. and check me out for good.. well i left.. and that saturday morning.. 2 of my BEST friends and TRUE friends came to see me... they walked about 4 houses over.. and about 1 football feild.. Randall Orell and Keaton Linder. i saw them when i left..i moved here.. and as soon as i got out the truck.. guess what i did.. i grabbed my skateboard and went strolling down the street.. and i came upon a short kid with funny hair.. with the name of david blanchard. and then i went to matts... my first week here.. i called nichole... about twice.. and then we never talked agian.. but i keep in touch with friends still.. nick, huntleigh, dalton, noah, carlos, and randall.. dalton tells me whats going down.. he told me all my friends moved.. to different school. be he also i said that they all still hang out together everyday after school.... I WONDER WHAT I WOULD HAVE HAD IN MY SECOND LIFE.

• THERE JUST FUCKIN WORDS... GET OVER IT PUSSY'S.. ITS NOT THE END OF YOUR LIFE... QUIT FUCKIN BITCHING.. GOD FUCKIN DAMN..